Wednesday, June 6, 2012

No. 729 – Dawn Is a Feeling


Performer: The Moody Blues
Songwriter: Mike Pinder, Peter Knight
Original Release: Days of Future Passed
Year: 1967
Definitive Version: None

Jim pitched the idea of having a house party during the winter of my sophomore year at Wabash; I liked it. Ed wasn’t against it per se, but he wasn’t really for it either. However, because he worked as a paramedic, he’d be gone, so it wasn’t an issue.

We had the party in January—post Comps for Jim (and Ed)—and as I recall, Jim took care of all the particulars. I invited some friends, but Jim invited practically the entire football team (he was one of the captains) and everyone who lived in the dorms.

And Jim through his connections invited women from a few sorority houses at DePauw. You know that stereotype that women will show up anywhere and hang out with anyone as long as there’s free drinks involved? It’s learned early. Why else would 20 college-age women go to a party held by two guys at a different campus?

Anyway, we closed off our bedrooms and left everything else open, including the screened-in porch, which we heated for the occasion. The party was a huge success: We probably had 50 people there, and the only thing that got broken was one wine glass, by Jim. Wabash’s only rule that “A Wabash man must act as a gentleman at all times” was definitely followed that night.

And I met Amy, one of the 20 or so DePauw coeds. She was an attractive brunette who wore the de rigeur attire of the day: dark blue slacks with a tuxedo blouse and bowtie. Her hair was curly but not teased to an inch of its life. That’s a look I like to this day.

We chatted a while and danced a while, and I got her number at the end of the night. Coming up was a formal Valentines Day dance for the independents in the student center, and I asked her to attend. She heartily accepted.

But then a funny thing happened: By the night of the dance, I had lost interest. Amy looked great, and I suppose in a different state of mind, I might have tried to convert that, but I didn’t. I didn’t want to—even though I had her back at the house by ourselves.

It was a strange night. The dance was pretty busted—almost no one was there—so we split, but when we drove back to the house, what normally was a 5-minute drive took literally an hour, because a fog had risen that was so thick you couldn’t see three feet in front of you. The last thing I needed was to plow into a buck, which was a potential problem along that road.

When we got back to the house, I put on Days of Future Passed, which Amy knew and liked. We talked for a while, and she waited for me to make my move, but I didn’t. After about 30 minutes, we had to make the torturous drive back because she had a ride back to DePauw from a friend who went to a frat party there. And that was the end of that.

Clearly, in retrospect, I passed up a golden opportunity. But at the time, I didn’t care. Why? Sometime between the house party and the dance, I had realized that I was really in love with Beth, and I really didn’t want to cheat on her.

I remember clear as day sitting at Dr. Herzog’s rolltop desk on a snowy-icy afternoon around that time looking out the window and thinking how much I missed Beth. So I wrote her a letter—Beth loved getting letters; it was very old-fashioned romantic—expressing my love for her.

I didn’t feel like I could cancel the date with Amy, which I should have, but I more or less blew her off for Beth. It’s easy to say now—based on how that turned out—that that was a bad call, but I had no regrets at the time. I decided then I was in for the long haul, and I had no further romantic dalliances at Wabash.

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